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Mo|son Canadian
Super Regular
Killer Scout

P: 12/25/2020 20:52 EST
   
Poll: Remember me?
Yes. (67%)
No. (28%)
Unsure. (6%)
Poll has ended (it ran for 14 days). 18 total votes.
It has been a long journey the last decade. Fraught with peril and terrible uncertainty. I won't keep you long (I'll keep you forever). So what happened in 2012 is that I tried to kill myself cause I was pretty messed up on cocaine and all over the place.

This was triggered by the loss of my cousin/BF Dave who went out West to make a better world. It was never good for him, he was in the Navy and his father beat him since he was 2. Used to lock him in the closet for hours. I hate his father and so does everyone else for doing that. Dave went to heroine cause his soul was tortured.

In 2012 in some park in Vancouver at 6am some jogger found him leaning against a try foaming at the mouth. Dave was a hardcore gambler and a genius but his demons he could never shake. Needless to say he passed away that morning cause he just wouldn't slow down.

This was around the time I stopped playing at drippys 2fort... and I must say, in my stats if you add up the hours i played drippys for 1 WHOLE year! ... WOW... I still have the callus on my lower right palm from all the dragging of my hand across the mouse pad. The little red tough bump lol.

So what happened with me is that I became hateful and angry even on drippys sometimes.. cause I had so bad losses of friends and family... SO for all of you who remember how I was I am no longer that guy... just all the good things you remember.

So I jumped off an overpass and broke my hip and fractured my skull. I recovered alowly from all that then I got cancer.. and it was stage 4 I was to 90% die... but.... no fought hard like a trooper and lived. IT LIVES!

So without dragging this on, I was think about coming to participate back to the forums and servers... I don't drink/smoke/do drugs.. nothing but soda and orange juice haha... I may even try to play sometime I think I can do it...

I just want to say I think about the old crew and how you people no matter how far you are away, we were a tight family and that meant alot to me. Always has. Why do you think I am here now? The tightest community on the net.. :D

So through my struggles and redemption I would like to infuse myself partially back to the community. I have been through hell and have actually died. So this shouldn't really be too difficult.

Mo|son. 2020
  
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angry_salad
Super Regular
Medic Capping
Service

P: 12/25/2020 21:26 EST
    Welcome back dude, I always wondered if you were alright. Nice to see that you're still among us.  
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skeetzz
Super Regular
Flag Capper
On Fire

P: 12/25/2020 21:41 EST
    Hi Mo|son...I watched one of your Demo YouTube videos a couple weeks ago, brought back memories from the old days.

  
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Prelude to Agony
Super Regular
Sniper Harassment
Duty

P: 12/25/2020 21:52 EST
   
Mo|son Canadian wrote:
It has been a long journey the last decade. Fraught with peril and terrible uncertainty. I won't keep you long (I'll keep you forever). So what happened in 2012 is that I tried to kill myself cause I was pretty messed up on cocaine and all over the place.

This was triggered by the loss of my cousin/BF Dave who went out West to make a better world. It was never good for him, he was in the Navy and his father beat him since he was 2. Used to lock him in the closet for hours. I hate his father and so does everyone else for doing that. Dave went to heroine cause his soul was tortured.

In 2012 in some park in Vancouver at 6am some jogger found him leaning against a try foaming at the mouth. Dave was a hardcore gambler and a genius but his demons he could never shake. Needless to say he passed away that morning cause he just wouldn't slow down.

This was around the time I stopped playing at drippys 2fort... and I must say, in my stats if you add up the hours i played drippys for 1 WHOLE year! ... WOW... I still have the callus on my lower right palm from all the dragging of my hand across the mouse pad. The little red tough bump lol.

So what happened with me is that I became hateful and angry even on drippys sometimes.. cause I had so bad losses of friends and family... SO for all of you who remember how I was I am no longer that guy... just all the good things you remember.

So I jumped off an overpass and broke my hip and fractured my skull. I recovered alowly from all that then I got cancer.. and it was stage 4 I was to 90% die... but.... no fought hard like a trooper and lived. IT LIVES!

So without dragging this on, I was think about coming to participate back to the forums and servers... I don't drink/smoke/do drugs.. nothing but soda and orange juice haha... I may even try to play sometime I think I can do it...

I just want to say I think about the old crew and how you people no matter how far you are away, we were a tight family and that meant alot to me. Always has. Why do you think I am here now? The tightest community on the net.. :D

So through my struggles and redemption I would like to infuse myself partially back to the community. I have been through hell and have actually died. So this shouldn't really be too difficult.

Mo|son. 2020
There should have been a 'fuck yeah' we remember you. Good to hear from you dude...sucks what you went through, but glad you found yourself and your way back here :)
  
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EnginGhent
Super Regular
Crack-Powered Capper

P: 12/25/2020 22:02 EST
    I thought of you the other day when I saw a Molson logo on the side of a building. For better or worse, all of the people here are more memorable than any of us give ourselves credit for.

You got dealt a bunch of shitty hands, and you stayed in the game. You should be proud of that. Whether you get back into TFC or not, that kind of trauma is incredibly difficult to process, move on from, and materialize into stability. Be kind to yourself, and don't be ashamed of asking for help when you need it from those around you.
  
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Fluffos My Bitch
Daycare Manager
Crack-Powered Capper

P: 12/25/2020 22:18 EST
   
Welcome back Mo|son! Your story may be long, but it is far from over. Continue living your life.

  
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Ignorant_Florist
Daycare Manager
Pipebomb Monkey

P: 12/25/2020 22:39 EST
    Hell yeah, we remember you, man! I'm glad you're still walking among us, and yeah, I had wondered what happened to you.

Some of older faces/names have moved on from here, but we've also gotten new ones added to the mix. But this community is still as tight as ever. Our little corner of the internet is still here, and going on.

Definitely hope you stick around, and that we will see you in the server.

Welcome back!
  
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lil-bastard
P: 12/25/2020 23:45 EST
    Welcome back Mo|!!!
  
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LGMB95033
Super Regular
Strategic Sentry
Placer

P: 12/26/2020 00:51 EST
    Horrid story glad to see you made it through. God bless.  
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moose poop
Super Regular
Body Splatter

P: 12/26/2020 09:49 EST
    Welcome back and Merry Christmas.  
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-[IBSC]-iLluSiON-
Super Regular
Killer Scout

P: 12/26/2020 09:49 EST
    Welcome back. I'm glad to hear you're doing better. That sounds like a real rough few years.

Old skool D2F demomen unite!
  
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EmotionallyDisturbedParakeet
Super Regular
Dizzy Capper

P: 12/26/2020 10:52 EST
   
EnginGhent wrote:
I thought of you the other day when I saw a Molson logo on the side of a building. For better or worse, all of the people here are more memorable than any of us give ourselves credit for.

You got dealt a bunch of shitty hands, and you stayed in the game. You should be proud of that. Whether you get back into TFC or not, that kind of trauma is incredibly difficult to process, move on from, and materialize into stability. Be kind to yourself, and don't be ashamed of asking for help when you need it from those around you.
  
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Ignorant_Florist
Daycare Manager
Pipebomb Monkey

P: 12/26/2020 11:53 EST
   
-[IBSC]-iLluSiON- wrote:
Welcome back. I'm glad to hear you're doing better. That sounds like a real rough few years.

Old skool D2F demomen unite!
Careful, Walnut might get upset with that statement... 😉
  
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Mr. Walnuts
Daycare Manager
Pipey FlagCatcher

P: 12/27/2020 01:01 EST
   

Welcome back, Mo|son. I beat Stage 4 myself. Not a great club to be in, but better than the other one, yes? But with all that other shit AND 2020? Wow. Perhaps you should take another year off because I'm only just now beating some of your records.

  
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Backalleybuttlove
Regular
Strategic Sentry
Placer

P: 12/27/2020 08:02 EST
    Wow, you're the #12 flag capper on the server. I eagerly await seeing your skills.   
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